current mood: I NEED A JOB MOOD. Is there such mood? Bahh.

8:01 PM about what happened the other day, i simply couldn't put it aside.
the thoughts about the one who's closed to me.
but yet, you showed how much trust you had in me.
i still couldn't believe the fact of how low that trust is.
after years of knowing me, is this how i am supposedly to be treated?
i just don't get it.
yes, in every aspects i'm always, the bad one to you.
amongst the rest, well i will have to agree on that.
but that doesn't mean the fact that you'll have to control every of my moves in life.
i have my own life, that's what i'm born for.
to live life the way i want it
or should i say to live life the way i should.
i'm old enough to know what's wrong and what's right.
and i know the one above, will be watching every single steps that i took.
i never ever dared to go against you all this while, let alone the one above.
it's time to think of what you should do. at least, give me my freedom for now.
i'm not asking for my freedom back - fact: i've never been given any.
i'm asking for my freedom , for now and for the rest of my life.