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Wednesday, March 15, 2006 its so PAIN-ful!!!
another day of ma life...hasnt been in a good mood..even though i pretended to be smiling at people around me..but deep inside...theres NO happiness...nah..im not kidding..im serious..i dunno wads becoming of me..havent been feelin well these few days..to be honest, i've been feeling guilty all the tyme..wad have i done..to be feelin this way the rest of ma lyfe.. havent done ma parents proud..dats wad i tynk is botherin ma mind..all those peps kept askin ma mum..wad course did i get...blah blah blah...n wen ma mum told them..some even went to the xtend of comparin another o level students wif me....like wth!! just wanna tell peps out there dat i noe i didnt do well for o levels..but hey! at least i get maself a course in poly ok..i noe..i've regretted about me slackin all the way while preparing for ma o levels..but now i have to face the fact! the fact dat o levels over! the fact dat i cant turn back time! the fact that ma grades turn out to be this way! the fact tat i've gotten this course out of all ma choices! n MOSTly..the fact that im posted to republic poly.. please..dont add salt to the wound...its DAMN hurtful..enuf of all dat..leave me alone..let me live on ma own decision..even how much u guys criticised me..it wont do me ANY good..it makes me HATE you peps even more..wanna say i have a BAD result..go ahead...behind ma back..but dont blame it on my parents..for having such a STUPID girl as their daughter...put the BLAME all on me... to tell you guys HONESTLY.. i dont think im STUPID..im not ok..just dat i've been lazy..i've been slackin on the time when i shud be focusing on ma studies..i just told maself..theres gonna be NO regrets right NOW..i'll just have to move on..and hope dat one day...i'll be able to make ma parents proud.. ~with the pain i hafta bear..i have no other options..but to move on as the hurtful days passes by ~ nutnatz (aint ur stupid next door girl)
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