current mood: I NEED A JOB MOOD. Is there such mood? Bahh.

10:14 AM i may be laughing out loudly wen sumone cracks a joke
but dat does not mean im happy...
i may look innocent when u meet me face to face
but dat does not mean i'll never tell lies..
i may look as if i have no problems at all
but the fact is i do have them..
life without problems?
IMPOSSIBLE..
no one reali noes wad im goin thru
i lurve to keep the problems to maself..
i'll suffer on ma own..
i dun lyke others to cry for me..
i dun want any sympathy
IN FACT, I DUN NEED THEM..
wen im havin problems, i'll just create a mask of illusion..
so dat NO ONE will noe bout the pain im goin thru
the secret is between ME & GOD..
SO no one will see me cryin..
i've learnt how to hold back ma tears..
coz i noe..theres nothing i can gain from..
by letting out ma tears..
in front of others..
at nights, wen everyone's sleeping..
i'll recall back ma painful moments of the day..
on ma bed...i'll just let go of ma tears..
weeping silently..
hoping dat no one hears me..
the more hurtful ma heart is..
the longer i'll take to stop..
but still, the pain is deep and intense..
but wad can i do...
dats ma only solution..
ma weaknesses dat i've tried so hard to hide..
at last, i've let it all out..
coz i tynk u need to noe the real me..